angsty first post

[baneofsociety]

Putting this here so that my page isn't blank... don't really have much to say right now though and I might delete it later once I actually make a real entry.

The one thing on my mind right now: I am pissed as hell at my parents, at my situation, and I am now to the point where I know I have to get out. I just need someone there to help me stay motivated because my depression often saps everything out of me. Sometimes just breathing is so hard.

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[scribbled_lore]

Welcome to Dreamwidth. Let me reiterate that if you have any questions you're always free to send me a message. In the meantime I hope your wandering around Dreamwidth proves interesting and fruitful.

[baneofsociety]

Thanks! I really appreciate it. ^^ I've already discovered some great fanfiction on here that I never stumbled across before. I'm so glad you invited me to this site. XD

[scribbled_lore]

Here are some people from my reading list that I'd happily rec to just about anyone:

damned_colonial writes historical fiction fics and does kink bingo fics.
torachan is a translator who right now is only getting gigs translating Japanese hentai and his entries about that are hilarious. He also quite frequently posts recs of fics that focus on trans*people.
recessional I don't know a lot about because they're fairly new to my reading list but they write fic! I do know they have experience dealing with MDD which I thought may be of interest to you.
holyschist does great book reviews and has really interesting posts on historical costuming.
zvi has great link dumps.
viklikesfic does some great kink bingo fics.

Of course, I personally think that everyone on my reading list is worth reading but your mileage may vary.

[baneofsociety]

Wow! Thanks for all of the recs. That is really awesome of you. I will definitely be checking some of these people out.

I have a question about the whole MDD thing. I was wondering why you thought I might have that particular depressive illness rather than a different one. I've been thinking lately that I might have bipolar disorder (although I know of course that we can't diagnose ourselves). My mood swings can be really intense and abrupt... although maybe that's not how it is with bipolar people? When I'm going through a 'high' episode I'm not just elated, but I also feel more aggressive and extremely creative. Although these high moments usually come about from listening to great music or some other pleasing stimulus. Any ideas?

Also, how have you been? It's been so long since I've talked to you. How is Spawn? lol XD Do you guys actually call him that? :) Are you and Cassius still living together?